Your soul has rainbows

Dear Stranger, I don't know you, and probably never will. But I have gone through periods of intense darkness in my life, and maybe you are going through one right now. I know it can feel very overwhelming, with no beginning or end in sight. Maybe you feel that your life is horrible, or don't see a way to make things better. First of all, I am really sorry that you are going through this. I really wish you didn't have to, because you deserve good things and happiness. 

I hope you have someone who loves you very dearly, and helps you through these dark days. I struggled to talk to my loved ones through these phases, so I understand if you haven't yet reached out. Even if you feel you don't have anyone who really cares, you have me. It may feel strange to you that I care about a person that I don't know and have never met. But weirdly enough, I do. I feel deeply connected to you because I have gone through a lot of ups and downs in life (more downs than ups in recent years), and I really want to help you. I can tell you what it's like on the other side. I won't lie, it's not perfect. There are still days when I don't even want to get out of bed. But there are other days when I smile and feel serene, and when I can see the beauty in this life, and I feel blessed to be in it. Just a year ago, this felt unattainable. 

And you, my dear stranger, are full of resilience. If you are here today, that means you took whatever life had to throw at you and dealt with it successfully. I am really proud of you, and I know you can get through this too. One of the biggest questions I had during my lowest times was: Why me? Maybe you're wondering that too. My answer is in the title of this letter. There is this saying: The soul would have no rainbows if the eyes had no tears. I see life so differently now, and I am very grateful for this softness in perspective. Without all that horrible stuff, I don't think I would be here writing to you today. I think you will find a beautiful rainbow too at the end of all of this darkness. Can I ask one thing of you? Please just stay another day, take another step, no matter how difficult it seems. Please also be kind to yourself. Give yourself big hugs on behalf of me. Smile when you see yourself in the mirror. You are an amazing and special person, and good times are on their way to you. They will be here before you know, and you will be so glad that you stayed. I hope that you have a beautiful and full life. I hope my words help you in some small way.

Love,

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